One 2:00 AM

too many people constantly bring accusations against us, telling us what we didnt do, or what we should have done.

because too many people listen to the wrong voices.

but that's all a part of life.


as long as we're pressing forward, getting up each day and do our very best.. what else matters?


just be ourselves, because one of the worst things we could do,
is to go through life being against ourselves.


and all we need is just one outta a hundred people, who really understand us.

really.
one is good enough. 

 

 

then again, 

just like what ruth said..

 

..what do you do when you dont have the luxury of even having one?  

5 hours of photoshoot.

2 hours of CFD research.

1 afternoon of arguments.

September 2009, Klvin Liaw 9:30 PM

K e l v i n  Liaw

Photography by Waynne Ning

Wardrobe Styling by Justin Sim

was my first time collaborating with kelvin.

this 20 yrs old, is superbly photogenic (i don't usually praise him in person, in fear he might fly away) and natural in front of the camera.

a bit shy, but he did awesome overall.

it will be a long term collaboration between us, from now till he gets better opportunity elsewhere :D 

i told jeszica, kelvin and adrian that, i would be really glad if they make it big in this field one day.

like really glad, because they all did their first (and onwards) shoot with me, i watch them as they get better each time and sometimes, its so touching i felt like a mother of three.

just playing.  

i wish i can put this much dedication into my postgrad research too.

 

 

 

SO MUCH WORK.

SO LITTLE TIME.

T.T

a series of shoots, managed to somehow squeeze them all into a few days.

which results in me being badly sunburnt.

so..postponing kelvin's shoot to next week is, a blessing in disguise.

did another shoot with her again. :D

she is awesome to photograph.

alone 12:05 AM

weichen. 15th September 2009. 

all that i loved, i loved alone.

we walked together,

yet walking alone.

pieces of life. 

Jessica 11:37 AM

makeup and photography by me.

dress by me.  

well not exactly a-dress-by-me but i roughly turn a plain black cloth into a work of art a one piece tube dress.

we kinda wanna do a self presentation of a soft goth melancholy, with a pinch of femininity, but jessica's punk hair is just way too short to achieve the desired look so i chose to extend her hair, in long spiral curls.

 

  

  

0809 11:00 AM

 when i spent this day with you last sept, 

i never thought how things would be beyond that time.

 never realized that one day, eventually, we will wrap the past all up in a string, whisk them all away neatly and move on in our own preferable reality.

perhaps its only momentarily, but i was there nonetheless. 

 this is for you.

 happy birthday. 

the l word 12:10 AM

 

  

  

  

they may forget what you said, 

but they will never forget how you make them feel - Carl. W 

Linda 8:25 PM

linda. 

august 2009.

im grateful 12:02 AM

linda and jaymee. 
 june 2009. 


had had a good day but it ended with one big slough of despair. 

when i finished my degree, i vowed never again to study. 

surprise.

i received an offer to do my postgraduate program in engineering.

one of my favorite work to date, was featured in the commendable category for harper's bazaar & canon fashion photography awards 2009.  i do not know how to express my gratitude. thank you so much!

i just realized my name was spelled wayne!  :D

 

thank you <3

my favourite makeup god (almost idolized) based in brisbane happens to notice my existence and he is actually, interested in collaborating with me!

happiness exciteness :D :D im grateful.


apparently someone recommended me to an editor in Australia, he kinda looked at my work and asked if I'd like to be featured in their article. 
must be dreaming. who am i to be featured?! 

God must have thought Im too bloody happy today im overreacting my emotions he decided to punish me a bit.

  i cant help but to think liddat because my dslr BROKE DOWN twenty minutes ago. 
officially broke down.
i was happily snapping away when it BROKE DOWN.
what happened?!?!

today is just way tooo much to take in.

hang on 11:15 PM

Hang On - one of my earlier works.


im not a person who does a lot of blog-hopping but i came across a piece of entry tonight, where this girl blogged about her sentiments of a past relationship. 

it echoes, jagged, and soothes mine exactly.

..it is as if i could have wrote them myself. 
long long time ago. 

but back in those days, i didn't know the impersonal nature of using a keyboard to type out my emotions, all that i knew was crying and twitching my heart out foolishly + computers were invented for solitaire only.

i gave her a virtual hug (just being emo myself). 

sent it in the post.

along with a bag full of smiles.

reine 3:22 PM

 

jessica.  

makeup, photography and postprocessing by me.

MJ's Tribute Tee 2:31 PM

while it may seem that everyone took the passing of the king of pop two months ago, into turning it into marketable merchandise/making money profiting off a celebrity's death (you all @#$%!), i actually found a pretty awesome shirt made by soulboy yunhao. 

i happened to do a photoshoot with him somewhere in june this year.

yunhao honoring the king of pop.

 

jessica.  

hair, makeup and photography by moi. 

  

dilemma 9:32 PM

living with boss wong is like living with king arthur.

he is scarily powerful.
  

i am holding on firm to believing what i really want outta life, except when i respond to bosswong and hear the coldness in his voice, i'll be drawn into a web of unbearable doubts and regrets that would spin itself chokingly around me until i'm ready to die with the sadness of guilt.

sadly guilty because im unable to follow his word, which i still do not apply.

there are so many other things beyond this default pattern of life that everyone in the 21st century is going through.

my definition of success is just different from yours 


please do not doubt my capabilities just because i always forgot to water your plants (which eventually died from dehydration).

i guess i should stop ranting.
  

because reality is, i'll prolly remain stagnant liddat, go office tomorrow and play with my toes for the rest of my life and either die from guilt or sadness of missed opportunity.

le sigh 1:17 AM

i wore my contact lens tonight..

..regardless of what people told me about the consequences of eye infection which may lead to severe swelling/corneal ulcer/oops..what else?

i still freakin wear my cons,
 just for the sake of looking more presentable ... in public.

-.-"

small pain in my chest 12:32 PM

life and emotions.

fact and realities,
they inspire me.
drive me further.
and push me towards being a better individual..
..in a way.


but hard as hard as it can be,
sometimes they make me so wanna hide away in that corner and cry.

x cons 2:22 PM

the next type you hear about the new generation of contact lenses that carries a lower risk of eye infection, shrug it off.

they are all the same. ):

i spend my day in alternating between sorting out photos and .. sorting out photos. -_-"

i came upon a lot of shoots that's i'd never really posted much of.

not shooting for a while has made me a bit rusty.

lately, i came across a crazed swarm of people(a.k.a photographers), vomiting great chunks of verbal attacks towards my direction.

i am quite surprised i didn't lose an arm. :D

failed at day 1 12:04 AM

i told roland that i am going to update my blog every single day so that he has something better to do,like read my blog and not spend hours drooling over gay nike airforce shoes on pickyourshoesdotcom okay sorry im just kidding haha smile.

i think i failed terribly @ day one.

because i no longer have any recollections what i did last morning.

at times like this, jesz comes in handy because she's an expert on the minutiae of my daily life.

i am suspecting she has terminator-like instant recall for events of over twenty years ago.

"ning, you remember what you did last friday?"
"urm..no?"
"we did the retro photoshoot!"


"ning, you remember what you did last last friday?"
"urm..no?"
"we did the andro photoshoot! "

"ning, you remember what you did last last last friday?"
" we did a photoshoot?"
" no! you promised you're going shabushabu with me but ffk me last minute."
" okay enough jesz."


i heard little wong III did badly (aawww) in his recent golf tournament in bintulu but last night, he returned in triumph as if from a heroic venture ( i have no idea why)

i realized there are people who never did make it to any pages of your history can actually mean a little something to you now.


and just when you think it is not possible to love someone anymore than you already do..



..you realize how wrong you are.

busy shooting and im procrastinating from retouching.

chuckloads of photos.

and a list of models based in KL that i've yet to go through.
so many stunning faces to choose from.



kiang and i went to watch transformers II some nights ago.

i'd had a feeling we were the last few living souls on earth to watch this movie because they were less than 10 people in the cinema. hahaha.

this guy is nice enough to fetch me.

" this is the only way you won't fong fei kei me ning. "

what an impression sigh. fail.

the movie was so loud that i felt like the deafest person on earth when we left the cinema.

i didn't understand the first fifteen minutes of the movie.

" which one is the bad guy? which one is the good guy ar? "


kiang either.

" which one is megan fox? "

-____-"

lol.

i find her new hair extremely gorgeous.

a photo shoot i did with aeron a while back.

the camera loves him a lot i must say.

all the best in pursuing a modelling career in singapore love!

last friday was a mixture of bad and good feelings.

the big smile news was..i was shortlisted for Harper's Bazaar!
i almost choked on my french fries when chen told me someone from some fashion magazine looked for me.

i appreciate it so so much. big love from me!

shortlisted. whoaa.
i'm satisfied already.
it may sound like a lil thing to you but it is a BIG thing to me. enough can.

you see, recognition mattered deeply to me, more than being a nice person.

okay. i'm just kidding.


anyway, i too, freaking lost my wallet on the same day.

i was racking my brain for where in the world it could be and i could only retrace my steps back to the taxi driver, whch i believe the chances of him returning my wallet is ZERO.

it was a busy night lodging report in the police station, terminating my cards, explaining to everyone what happened, blaming myself before others do and recalling how much cash i'd inside.

okay so i knw how much cash i'd had inside the amount omg it hurts so bad i decided to dismiss it as a figment of my imagination.

i hated the sinking feeling when i knw it was gone for good.
my favourite wallet. ):
my whole life was in there. ): ):
now that she's somewhere else,probably on the streets @ jalan ampang. ): ): ):
or with someone else who prolly took all the cash & threw her on the streets and let the stray dogs chew the hell outta her. ): ): ): ):

it is also sad to imagine my identity card chewed by stray dogs.
ouch. my face.
eww.

sigh.

bad luck.


on a random note, the song in michelle's blog so make me wanna fall in love all over again.

how random. :D

i haven't photographed for one week.
and it feels like such a long long time.

j suggested that i should consider exhibiting a few of my work here, just like how i exhibit 'em exaggeratingly on facebook.

i told him that's because all i've been doing online is facebooking.

you know, happy lil farms and playing quizzes that predicts where you'll be in ten years time and it says jail wtf.

this is a photoshoot i did a while back.

one of chosen few to be submitted.

makeup hair and photography by me.

dress by me.

someone bought a big fat watermelon.

i saw it in the fridge.

i was so happy because i was so thirsty at that point.

i happily carried it using both hands, and lay it on the benchtop.

i reached for the knife.

and wtf, i almost stabbed my own stomache when i make attempt to cut open it because the stupid watermelon kept rolling around.

*eyes wide open*

so silly.

the sky looks clearer today.

but my frame of mind isn't getting any brighter.

pack my bag and go.

that's all i wanna do.

because i've never hated anyone this much.


physically bruised.

emotionally battered.

i've never felt so much anger.

and i've never felt so, so much sadness.

it sure hits me hard.

but feeling sorry for myself is the last thing i'd want to do.

1945. home. 10:12 PM

by some benign munificance, travel photography featured this photo below as the photo of the week.
initially i was excited but wore off in a while because the page took forever to load.

thanks aaron for the info.

1945. home.

bookmark 8:36 AM

i made the tough decision..
...for a better story.

for my story.

and i am totally aware theres nobody on my side on this.